Posts Tagged ‘personality

11
Jan
13

Project 365 – Day 11

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09
Sep
12

Life as I know it (then and now)

It’s been a very lazy weekend.  Spent most of yesterday napping (which made it horrendous to try and sleep last night) and playing with the cats.  Got a late start to the morning.  Ended up treating myself to a bath with one of Saje’s Well Being bath swishes.  If you know this product, then you know that there’s a little message inside.  Here’s mine. Continue reading ‘Life as I know it (then and now)’

17
Mar
12

Day 25: Would you rather date someone plain with an amazing personality or…

someone beautiful with a plain personality? Continue reading ‘Day 25: Would you rather date someone plain with an amazing personality or…’

20
Feb
12

Day 17: What do you want to be when you get older?

Over the past few days, I’ve been wondering if this blog challenge was made up by someone fairly young.  What with all the crushes on celebrities and whatnot.  Now I’m pretty sure that the author was much younger than me.  He or she would have to be to ask this kind of question today.

You know what I want to be when I get older?  I want to be Continue reading ‘Day 17: What do you want to be when you get older?’

18
Jul
11

Of Dreams and Deeds

I started volunteering my time for a Grade 10 Christian Ethics project.  We each had to do a certain number of hours with an approved charity.  I chose UNICEF.  It was dull office work in a drab basement office, but it opened my eyes to a larger world. It was a world that needed help, and I wanted to be a part of that.  I went way beyond my needed hours; 2 years later I resolved to do what I could to work in the developing world.

There were twists and turns and dead ends in my path after my high school years.  I learned the hard way that good intentions aren’t enough to reach my goals.  Eventually I found my place doing eyecare work with Remote Area Medical Volunteers, then with Third World Eye Care Society.  I still remember that very first day of clinic in St. Cuthbert’s Mission in Guyana; how awkward I felt because I didn’t know what I was doing, yet how peaceful I felt knowing that this work was what I was meant to do.  On all 3 trips I’ve taken Continue reading ‘Of Dreams and Deeds’

31
May
11

My “personalDNA”

I’m a sucker for personality tests. I don’t put much weight on the results, but I find it really interesting to see what each test evaluates as part of a person’s personality.  So I found this one while surfing the net and thought I’d share my test results. Cause I’m goofy that way… Continue reading ‘My “personalDNA”’

28
May
11

Another twist in my path

Butchart Garden, Victoria, BC

~ All paths are the same, leading nowhere.  Therefore follow the path with heart. ~
~ Carlos Castaneda

It’s been a very long time since my last post.  Mainly because I’ve been really busy. The new year started with my teaching job with the Canadian Association of Optometrists.  From January until April, I’ve taught workshops in Richmond, Edmonton, Saskatoon, Halifax and Toronto. I really love teaching, and that’s something that I never thought would be possible a few years ago.  I get tired of packing and unpacking my suitcase. I always think that I would love to sleep in my bed for longer than 2 weeks at a time.  My cats smother me with attention because they miss me.  Yet, by mid-May, I was already wishing I was on the road again.

Busy’s good; I always say that it keeps me out of trouble.  But up until now, keeping busy has given me an excuse to avoid facing a big worry.  Workshops are done until next year.  What do I do next?

Stanley Park, Vancouver, BC

~ Depression is a prison where you are both the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailer. ~
~ Dorothy Rowe

That’s how I’ve been feeling.  The unknown is weighing down on me and consuming my thoughts.  I suffer from depression, and when something gets me down, I think and ruminate and obsess and over-analyze. It’s like I’m spinning my tires and going nowhere fast.  I can set down my worries momentarily while I have to do something else, but the second I’m done a task I’m right back to the thinking cycle.  I think my brain’s been wired to work along these same neural pathways for so long that I have to really struggle to forge new paths of thinking.  And these past 2 weeks, I just haven’t had the energy to fight the good fight.

Some people in my life think it’s unwise for me to openly talk about my depression.  That stigma still exists in our society.  “Just snap out of it.”  “Stop thinking so negatively.”  “Why do you do this to yourself?”  Just some of the comments I’ve received over the years.  I think that if we all keep silent about depression, the more it remains misunderstood.  When I was first diagnosed, I felt so incredibly alone. Then, slowly, I learned that a number of people around me are in the same struggle.  I’ve discovered which friends I can lean on for support.  And I’ve found strength in myself that I didn’t know was there.

The Yosef Wosk Reflecting Pool, UBC

~ Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without. ~
~ Buddha ~

I’m working at coming out of this dark hole.  Good friends have been here to make sure that I continue to be an active participant in my own life.  If I can find a way to tame my thoughts, find new paths for them to follow, then I think I will find the peace that I so desperately need.  I was at UBC just last week, and this place with its natural serenity embodies what I want in my mind and soul.  I must continue to follow my path with heart.

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